When You Were My Man

[Inspired by Bruno Mars' When I Was Your Man]

Different bed and it feels more cosier now
Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down
Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name

It all just sounds like oooooh…
Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize

That you should have bought me flowers
And held my hand
Should have gave me all your hours
When you had the chance
Take me to every party
Cause all I wanted to do was dance
But now baby I’m dancing
yes, I’m dancing with another man

your pride, your ego, your needs, and your selfish ways
Caused a nice young love like me to walk out your life
Now we’ll never, never get to clean up the mess we made
but it no longer haunts me when I close my eyes

It all just sounds like oooooh…
Mmm, I’m young, but smart to realize

That you should have bought me flowers
And held my hand
Should have gave me all your hours
When you had the chance
Take me to all the parties
Cause all I wanted to do was dance
But now baby I’m dancing
But I’m dancing with another man

I know it hurts
I’m not the first to say that you were wrong
Oh, I know you’re probably much too late
To try and apologize for the mistakes
But I just want you to know

yes, he buys me flowers
And he holds my hand
And he gives me all his hours
Cause he has the chance
Takes me to all the parties
Cause he remembers how much I love to dance
Does all the things you should have done when you were my man

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Dear AACK,

Above dedicated to you. Its been a long while and this is so overdue.

Why things happened? Basically, the song explains all. Time. That happened. You were there, but not there.

Let me tell you a story that you didn't know and I do hope you recall the incident.

There was one night. I went out drinking. At about 2am I was already too hungover to drive home so I gave you a call. In my mind, at that time, a bf should always be protecting the person he loves, but apparently not in my case. When I called you, you were pissed. I remembered your exact words "what do you want?" I knew I woke you up. But I didn't wanna drive drunk. So I ignored the hurt I felt and asked if you could cone over and send me home (I expected bfs to do so) but instead you got angry at me for waking you up etc. Then I hung up. I wanted to cry. You didn't even bother to know how bad my condition was. Then after telling myself to be stronger, I decided to call NiteHaze. Guess what, he answered calmly. Coz he knows the lagic, if someone calls suddenly in the middle of the night, its usually is an emergency. I told him I drank too much and couldnt drive home. 1st thing he asked after that was if I was okay and he asked where were YOU? So I told him you can't come and pick me. Then he offered to help. He had no car, it was already 3am, and he asked where I was. I told him I would sleep in the car and go home when the sun is up. And then i hung up. I fell asleep and woke when I heard tapping on my window. I thought it was the police, when I looked out, he was standing there, with his bike and it was drizzling. I was shocked. He said he couldn't just stay home knowing i was alone in my car in a vacant area so he came. It was 330am. He asked if i wanted to get a room to stay in for the night but i said no, I didn't have that much money. So he decided to drive me home instead but then how would he go home after? So I asked him if I could stay at his place til morning. He said ok and left his bike somewhere safe and drove us to his house. I was asleep all the way. He aided me to his room and I slept on his bed. He watched over me all night long. When I woke, he was ready to go to work. He said he slept on the floor. Poor guy. Sanggup eh. Then I dropped him off to work. The irony, he was not my bf yet he was willing to go all the way for me and my bf at that time didn't seem to give a damn.

All the time I feel abandoned by you, I would speak to him and he will always console me and reassured that you must have been busy etc. You do know that me and him used to be together right? Yet, he doesn't mind hanging out with you. Such a pure heart.

Many ppl question why I do so much for you but not you for me. Yet someone who is not even with me could do much more. At that time, I didn't think of it much. Until the day he passed. That's when I felt so lonely. And I realize I no longer have someone to protect me. You were already far away, and even when you were near, you felt far.

I admit, I started to drift away from US. There were just too many times I felt alone even though you were next to me. Then I ended it. I did it for my sake and for yours. Yes I was being selfish and it was the right thing to do. No point in being together when all I felt was emptiness.

As per the song above, I am dancing with someone now. And he has been wonderful. It is complicated. But TIME, he has for me. No plans of settling down coz that idea just makes me remember promises made before and then broken. So we're  just living our lives day to day.

But I do wish you the best and I am proud of your achievements. You have gone much further than from before and that's great.

As for me, hopefully I will be able to pursue my MBA in 2016. It has been a long journey with UUM.
I do hope you find someone who can understand you better. And please please please, do not repeat your mistake. As tough as a girl may be, she is still a girl and will still want attention. Keep that in mind.

To sign off, the love was there. But as I have said before, love is not enough.

Thank you for time spent. Will always be part of my memories.

Take care and God bless.

-once, your bunny.