My heart is drying itself up drop by drop. That feeling of pain when there's no wound not scar. Drops of tear like blood from the heart. Probably, what normal people call DEPRESSION.
Mentally tortured. Truly, killing me softly~~
It the unexplainable feeling of pain. The exhaustion of the mind thus resulting body fatigue.
The headaches - feeling like the room is spinning just without the sharp pain in the back of the head.
The uneasiness of typing on the keyboard or dialing the phone for fear of making a mistake.
This torment... is just too much right now.
Aside from that, love has not been so nice too.
Falling out of love is more like it. Demotivated. The love candle is burning dimmer and dimmer and getting shorter. How can I turn it into eternal flame when I'm second guessing myself daily?
He is the one at this moment, but will he be the ONE that's forever? With the way he is presenting himself, my family is not amused nor impressed. Yes, you can impress my cousins but my aunts, uncles?
HE should be the MAN. HE should MAN-UP. HE should be more than just a status.
WHY?
Because HE will be the head of the family. HE will be the one who provides. HE will have to give me at least 1.5k monthly for allowance etc. HE will be the caretaker.
Having/building a family is somewhat like a business.
You have the Director, the Manager, the Executor.
HE should be the Directors and Executor. and I should be the Manager.
Amusing as it may sound... i'm still depressed though, just thinking about it. Because at this moment, I'm the Director, The Manager and Executor and HIM? Just the officer~~
Food for thought: Who are you in your relationship?
