my carelessness

i try to turn away from your warmth
but i stumble and i fall
so careless i've become
as i try to avoid your eyes

i dont mean to say those nasty things
i never meant to hurt you
i meant to tell you how i feel
but all i did was hurt u more

i dont want you to see the tears
running down my cheeks
but all i yearn for
is a warm hug from you

i dont know what to say anymore
for everything comes out wrong
i get up but i keep falling
i'm so careless, nothing's helping

I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
but when i reach out for your hand
i fall and woken from my dream

each night I lie awake
thinking maybe you love me
like I've always loved you
like u used to love me before

i thought i have someone there
yet feel so alone
aren't you supposed to be
the one to wipe my tears

i try to treat you right
but each caress i give
it scars your beautiful face
giving u nothing but pain it seems

so careless am i
not knowing what i say is wrong
i just cant help it
when you treat me cold

i want to love you
but you shut the door tight
you tell me it's alright
but all we do is fight

so many scars on me
after stumbling and falling
all i want is you to be
the one who kisses this pain away

i'm so careless when i'm losing you
i stumble and i fall
my stutter with my own words
everything goes wrong

my blue brown eyed love

when i look into your blue brown eyes
i remember the love we use to had
sweet honesty not even lies
u are the best i ever had

our times were sweet
filled with laughter and smiles
although we were apart
you were far away, many miles

but then everything changed
nothing was the way it was before
i felt i was like being hanged
altho it was love that i ask for

you left me all alone
i had no where to go
you were getting colder
feelings, unsure which to show

i waited for your return
you came back but only leaving again
it's not that i didnt learn
you were just getting too faint

altho u left me again
i tried to hard to not miss you
i tried to hard to not want you
i even thought i could love again

everything fell apart
you have someone new
nothing matters, not my heart
for i juz cant stop loving you

its easy to lie when you're far away
for they are just words nothing much to say
but when u held my hand again
those lies that lived, were slain

when u touched me, stroking my hair,
i felt that same warmth that i missed
in my eyes i see that warm embraced u used to give
that warm kiss u once put on my lips

i try to snap myself out
but i fell deeper into your eyes
those eyes, which looked at me with love
a feeling that felt so nice

you made me feel alive again
making me feel love once more
but, was it pleasure or was it pain
it was both, yet still i wanted more