my carelessness

i try to turn away from your warmth
but i stumble and i fall
so careless i've become
as i try to avoid your eyes

i dont mean to say those nasty things
i never meant to hurt you
i meant to tell you how i feel
but all i did was hurt u more

i dont want you to see the tears
running down my cheeks
but all i yearn for
is a warm hug from you

i dont know what to say anymore
for everything comes out wrong
i get up but i keep falling
i'm so careless, nothing's helping

I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
but when i reach out for your hand
i fall and woken from my dream

each night I lie awake
thinking maybe you love me
like I've always loved you
like u used to love me before

i thought i have someone there
yet feel so alone
aren't you supposed to be
the one to wipe my tears

i try to treat you right
but each caress i give
it scars your beautiful face
giving u nothing but pain it seems

so careless am i
not knowing what i say is wrong
i just cant help it
when you treat me cold

i want to love you
but you shut the door tight
you tell me it's alright
but all we do is fight

so many scars on me
after stumbling and falling
all i want is you to be
the one who kisses this pain away

i'm so careless when i'm losing you
i stumble and i fall
my stutter with my own words
everything goes wrong